It has been a long time since I’m delaying my plans, wishes and random errands. I don’t know how and when I started being lazy (let’s be honest, procrastination is just a fancy word for laziness) but I am positive that allowing to „delay“ everything is the primary reason why I’ve lost myself. Because that’s what procrastination does. It literally makes you not knowing who you are anymore nor what to do to live a fulfilling life.
And you keep on wondering who you are, but doing nothing to find that out. At first I didn’t realize that I would be the one who has to do something about it. I thought, the time will pass and everything will set into its’ own place. And after a loooooong (really long, ten years long), looooong time it was time to put my foot down and devote myself to the things I love and have passion for.
Let me set you an example. I wanted to write this blog since mid ’00. I wanted and wanted, but I never did it. You can only imagine what agony causes a decade on wanting and wishing (and doing nothing). And the truth is, there is no one to blame.
(Here I would like to state that at this moment, just as I’m writing this, I’m finding myself procrastinating. Texting to friends, walking to the kitchen, plucking eyebrows… WHY???!!)
To carry on with this story, I have to say that primary reason (and not the only one!) for procrastination is fear. Fear of what others will think. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of „what if I change my mind“. Has anyone ever felt that way? Have your own fears ever held you back but there was no reason? Well, in order to fight those feelings and get my life and thoughts in order I will have to learn discipline just like I was a child. Do what you want to do, what feels right, don’t (over) think about it for ten years. There is a saying: „There is no time like the present. “ And here I am, finally writing this blog. And after all this time I’m starting to feel good.
If anyone is having similar problems/story, feel free to write your own experiences in the comments. If you have ever written something on that subject, link it below, because I would love to read that. It would help me and many others, I believe.
Until next time,